The Artist's Way - Week 6
Discloser: I completed the Artist’s Way, week 6 for the first time in February 2017. If you are new to this blog series, click here to read the first post.
Recovering a Sense of Abundance
This week is about MONEY!... Now that I have your attention...
I found great comfort in this week as it focuses on the "security" of money. Something that, much like most everyone else, has worried me in the past. But my concerns about money have become less worrisome and more liberating as I have learned not to depend on it so much. I know what you're thinking, "Uh... You kind of have to depend on money". Yes, I agree with you. But at the same time, I don't.
First, I grew up in a very fortunate situation so I can't speak for those who have not been so privileged. While I cannot fully understand the pain and trouble of all financial situations, my hope is that faith can be placed in something other than money, as necessary as it is. I pray you can find hope and safety in a higher power than yourself - in a higher power than money.
"For many of us, raised to believe that money is the real source of security, a dependence on God feels foolhardy, suicidal, even laughable." (Julia Cameron, The Artist's Way, pg. 105)
I have never been excited about the idea of getting a full time job. I've kept part time, dead-end jobs because I felt they gave me freedom, time, and flexibility to do what I loved, which usually meant spending the day locked in the studio, or even spending the evening before painting into the early hours of the morning, among other things. But as I considered more "financially stable" jobs or giving into the full time work ethic, I was reminded by others, "You know, at some point... you gotta grow up."
Well then... maybe I won't be an artist. Or maybe I will but only when I have the time and money. God probably doesn't want me to be an artist anyway. He wants me to have a sensible job and put all money I make towards my future.
"We have tried to be sensible--as though we have any proof that God is sensible--rather than see if the universe might not have supported some healthy extravagance." (pg. 107)
We gotta grow up sometime, right? We must give up our freedom and give less time for what we love to do to do something more practical. We must grow up to make it in this world.
Yes and no... I fear those who try to convince you of this are simply blocked creatives themselves projecting a false self-belief that being an artist or following a dream is foolish. They might have given up their inner child a long time ago. Which is unfortunate because, I think, the inner child is our most authentic self and therefore our direct line to God.
But rather, as an artist, I must hang on to my inner child, give in to the silly whims and desires of my authentic self, and expect abundance and blessings galore! And besides, to grow up - is it not to have the courage not to depend on money but to depend on a God that fueled the very desires of your heart? And to give into those desires? It is not mature in heart to work for something for reasons other than financial gain, attracting abundance in every other meaning of the word?
But what does that matter... because:
"What we really want to do is what we are really meant to do. When we do what we are meant to do, money comes to us, doors open for us, we feel useful, and the work we do feels like play to us. " (pg. 108)
Money will come to us anyway. Abundance will envelope us, in every meaning of the word.
I believe in a God that wants me to do what I love. That wants me to have the freedom to create and to thrive on my own creativity and passion. I don't believe in a stern parent watching over me approving or disapproving what I do. I would not get along with that God, and he knows it.
"Creativity is not and never has been sensible." (pg 107) ... And neither has God.
This week is very similar to last in that it focuses on the generosity of Heavenly Father and his desire to serve and bless you. Again, look for ways in your life to allow such blessings and be open to any form they come in. Abundance doesn't come from working hard for money despite what most believe. Abundance comes from a place of authenticity, gratitude, and love.
"Expecting devine help, they tend to receive it." (pg. 107)
"As you expect God to be more generous, God will be able to be more generous to you." (pg. 108)
"All too often, we become blocked and blame it on our lack of money. This is never an authentic block." (pg. 109)
Everything you desire is already yours.