"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."
- Gialal al-Din Rumi
I Simply Am
I am all things. I am all things, therefore I am whole. At the center of everything that I am, I am pure authentic love. I am all things, and therefore I am love. I am love simply because I exist. I am happy, I am good, I am peace, I am joy, I am fun, I am sad, I am hate, I am anger, I am resentment, I am jealousy, I am fear, I am lonely, I am envy, etc. I am all things. People try too hard to be only the “good” things, attempting to cast out or “disown” the others. That is when things go wrong and life gets hard.
'The New Testament's "Be ye perfect" is a mistranslation of the original Greek word which means whole.' - Eckhart Tolle
Being more like Christ doesn’t mean being only “good” things or being "perfect". To be everything, to OWN every part of you, the good and the bad (which means not judging it as good or bad), is to be WHOLE. It is to be centered. To be centered means to be love. It is acceptance and understanding. And only when we are centered, can we be in line with God. Because that is what God is - pure, authentic love at the center of ALL that He is. Stop striving for perfect, whatever the heck that is. Be what you already are: whole.
There is no duality within the authentic self.
Suffering, trial, pain, affliction, sin all mean the same thing to me: opportunity to heal.
We suffer because there is purpose for our suffering. Without suffering, we are stagnant. We cannot progress or unbecome what we are not. So I encourage you to allow yourself to suffer - easier said than done. Even so, it can be done. And when it is done, only then does peace exist. Avoid the word should. "It shouldn't be this way, I shouldn't have to suffer like this." Why shouldn't you? And in that moment, when you realize this, your suffering lightens. Grief becomes bearable. And less often. So stop fighting the present moment. Because when you fight it, you amplify the problem.
There is power to your grief. Your grief has power just as the Savior's grief has power. Your grief heals, it enlightens, it sanctifies. So allow it. Surrender to it.
"The wound is the place where the light enters." -Gialal al-Din Rum
"...Pain is what it took to teach me to pay attention. In times of pain, when the future is too terrifying to contemplate and the past too painful to remember, I have learned to pay attention to right now. The precise moment I was in was always the only safe place for me. Each moment, taken alone, was always bearable. In the exact now, we are all, always, all right. Yesterday the marriage may have ended. Tomorrow the cat may die. The phone call from the lover, for all my waiting, may not ever come, but just at the moment, just now, that's all right. I am breathing in and out. Realizing this, I began to notice that each moment was not without beauty."
"The reward for attention is always healing." - Julia Cameron, The Artist's Way
Learn to live in the present moment.
Body And Spirit
We are so impatient with anything that isn't wellness. This is very unfortunate because the point to our ailment is to tell us something is wrong and we need to work on changing it, which takes time. Listen to your body. One of the biggest lessons I've learned is that physical illness is just as often caused my spiritual/emotional trauma. So no immediate, temporary, physical solution can heal you. You must look inward. You must explore yourself, your childhood, your anger, your anxiety, etc. Where did it come from? Why is it here? What is it trying to tell you? That you have not been honoring your boundaries? That you have been repressing your trauma as not to feel it (or to heal it)?
Sometimes, and far more often than we think, we have to heal spiritually before we can heal physically. From Chronic Fatigue to the common cold, drugs aren't going to do a dang thing for you when it's really your psyche that's under attack.
Known for universal remedies, Panacea (the Goddess of health and wellness) represents an aspect of life that I take very seriously. I am very nutritionally/physically aware and do my best to listen to what my body is trying to tell me. To give my body and its abilities the best chance, I am aware of what I consume and absorb. Whether it is externally noticeable or not, everything that we partake of either serves our bodies or inhibits them in some way. And not just physically. Physical wellness intertwines with our spiritual being - one always affecting the wellness of the other.